Feelings mutual

This is a song from the movie Fireproof.  If you haven't seen it yet, it's really awesome.  I love it!  I've seen it probably 5 times already and really really enjoy it.  Anyway this song is called "While I'm Waiting" by John Waller. That's how I'm feeling right now. 

"I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait"

 I love Aaron very much and would really like to be getting married like a year ago.  Not joking.  But today's sermon really helped me think about how I should be patiently waiting and serving the Lord.  I should also be praying for more specific things.  So one of the ways I am applying this is with asking the Lord for patience. This song also reminds me of that.  I've decided that while I am waiting on the Lord to allow us to get married that I'm going to be in the Scriptures daily, looking at what it means to be a couple serving the Lord together. 

I truly believe that Jesus has put Aaron and I together and that someday we will be doing full time ministry together in one way or another.  We've already done a lot of ministry together. One of our close friends said that it was through our witness that said friend came to Christ and was able to grow in Christ.  My senior year of college we'd stay up in the end lounge talking about spritual topics.  Well, to be honest I usually ended up falling asleep because I'm not very good at staying awake at night, BUT, it was awesome to be able to serve our friend TOGETHER! 

I just pray that the Lord will continue to help me to grow in patience as I wait on His timing for marriage.  I know I know, never ask for patience.  But to be honest that is what I need. James1:5-6 says " ⁵If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. ⁶But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind."  I am asking God for wisdom and patience as He shows me His will for our lives. 

Thanks for listening to my ramblings.

stupid but perseverant fishie

I forgot to post this last week but Goldilocks decided she didn't like the container she was in and flopped out onto the floor I came home later one night (probably like 11 ish) and picked her up with a paper towel and decided for the heck of it to put her back in her bowl and see if she was ok. Here we are a week later and a little less tail and she's swimming around. Stupid fishie! At least she survived. Anyway yeah she's a brat she dislikes me muchly like any time I come near the bowl she's like, nope swimming away now. And she won't eat if I'm anywhere near the bowl which can sometimes be a problem. goofy fishie. I wish I could have a real pet in a way but I'd really rather not have to take care of it right now and I'm not home often enough to take care of it well. :( I wish I was. Hopefully by this time next year I'll be a lot more experienced and able to have a pet (which will take convincing my landlord of course.)

Anyway yeah this week has also been rough in school. One student was suspended. Last week he was having very bad rages and Thursday I left crying because he literally flipped my room upside down. I was so afraid he was going to hurt himself. I didn't care if he hurt me I just didn't want him to hurt himself. He was such a sweet kid when we started school. I'm not sure what has happeend. He doesn't care about consequences anymore. He actually tells me he wants to be suspended and things. Well he got his wish yesterday he was suspended because he kicked another student. The suspension came as a result of a lot of things he had done in the past two weeks. It's just very sad because he's only 8 years old. I just don't understand how these kinds of things happen to kids so young.

Update on Mr. Rebellious: He's been so rude to all of the students in the class lately ie. calling their moms names, pushing them in the halls, literally tripping over them; cheating in dodgeball (and he's a big kid); not doing his work and the like. He is no longer allowed in my class until his behavior changes. He gets off the bus and goes straight to the office, and then we take his work, breakfast and lunch in to him. He's not allowed to leave the office except to go to the bathroom. I'm not sure when he'll be allowed back in the classroom. I don't know what to do with him because nothing seems to be working. I mean this morning he snuck past the people walking the kids to the classes and was in my classroom and almost got decked by another student because he was calling said student's mom names again. MR. REBELLIOUS WAS IN THE OFFICE ALL DAY YESTERDAY BECAUSE OF SUCH BEHAVIOR!!! It's just so frustrating that I don't know what to do for him. He also has a tendency to lie . . . A Lot! I've caught him in so many lies it's unreal for a 6 year old. He never thinks anything is his fault. He also thinks his nanna is the authority at school and has the ability to tell me what he's allowed and not allowed to do. Blah! Sorry I'm ranting. I just wish I could somehow reach this kid because he's so intelligent but chooses to act poorly all the time!

On the up side: Sunday is Friend's Day at church and I get to see Aaron's Mom Holly for Friends day and her birthday! AWESOME! I love her so very much! I also get to see Courtney, Aaron's sister which is awesome because I love Courtney as well. The only one missing will be Sarah. (you will be missed Sarah). I'm excited for this weekend. And I'm kinda excited to NOT have a wedding this weekend. But having so many weddings right in a row does NOT make it easier for me to wait to get married.